1-23-14

It's that kind of feeling
where you can't fall asleep right away.
You look forward to lying in bed
to go over your day
and feel the shadows of your smiles
brush across your face
again and again.

Winter

2016
innocent eyes
and second,
the way his lips purse
crying in his shoulder
my tears only grow worse 

we’re driving in the car
windows down
it was summer then
we’re not free now

tell me, do you still want to run away?
the street light tells us to stay
he knows I like the breeze through my hair
back when life wasn’t so heavy to bear

now I’m screaming for him back
he knows he can’t leave
but the wind is awfully piercing here
tell me it’s causing what’s not so clear

2-18-15

you have a picture in your head;
a feeling in your bones
and you try to soak it all in,
only to allow the perfect words
to flow out of that one moment.

(inhale) life; (exhale) poetry.

I've been staring at a blank screen
for almost half an hour.
My computer died
but I can't bring myself to leave
to go get my charger.
I didn't want to do homework anyways.
I just wanted to sit with you.
For you to know I'm there,
that I still care,
even though I'm hurting
a lot.
But
I love you
and this is the kinda crazy stuff
that love makes you do.

8:05 a.m. (10-3-16)

I'll remember that look.

I could feel it
burning through my eyelids.
I could hear my breathing
and imagine it in sync
with your blinking.

I didn't dare open my eyes
for fear of you
closing yours
and losing this moment
in the flutter
of our lashes.

3-13-16

I was drowning
but I'm in the ocean
and everything
is peaceful

the waves
the stars
the sand

it's a spell.

February 2016

I’m running,
I’m running to something
that’s always too far out of my reach.
I’m chasing,
I’m chasing the clock 
and everything it holds.
it rolls
it rolls on,
laughing in my face.
taunting me.

I am fluid and in control
and everything in between.
I pick at the grass below
to buy me some time
but it’s all backward
and it’s all swirling
out of control
out of control
out of control
out